Tuesday, March 1, 2011

4:56 PM

its like..
if im not there, nobody could do anythg.
fudge.
no one fix the water heater yet. nobody knows what to do if they bang MY car. and nobody even care bout the contract agreement letter for the place they r staying.

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11:31 AM

the other day was my birthday, last sunday, to b precise.
celebrate it with my bf's family n mine, and celebrate again with another friends who share the same birth date with me. and go back and fell sick...

and took leave for the next day as i was too tired and weak after a whole week of tiring things filling my time, can't even take a break n rest.. seriously n literally that tiring.

and tuesday back to work.
i didnt expect my colleague will prepared something and celebrate it.. till they reveal it and i had no guess before. hebats.
evening, tea time, celebrate it again, another cake (and i still have a full cake waiting in the fridge at home, untouched yet, till now).. after candle torture, they bumps me (literal bumps me ass), and facial mask me with the leftover a piece of cake. then present time.. yea.. got present..... :) i like this part... usually... but this time there's another present that i DON'T want. from a psycho stalker. wonder what, i open it once i got back. and... ta-daaaaaa..........

a very avatar movie poster?

fuck.
i hate avatar.

gave it to my bf to burn..

and fyi, i love other presents<3 style="font-style: italic;">PS: i hate the psycho very very much now. its been a year for fuck's sake.
don't u have other thing to do? as in,.. working maybe?? du-uh.....
STOP disturbing me and my family. fucking kill urself with a tofu

image by Kirillee, taken from deviantart

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4:10 PM

I am a bitter person.

Yes, i am, seriously..

Someone just made my life so bitter i hate it a lot now. I hate my life a lot.

Why?

First, he's 21. wait.. it's a he? Hmm, not a she for sure, but not a he, too... whatever. This creature, it.
well, ya, it is 21 years old. old enough to live by itself i suppose?
This thing makes me bitter.
Not entirely because of it fault, but it trigger the whole bitterness in me.

such a damn-mothafuckr-pain in the ass

IT LIED bout my existence. I'm exaggerating.
But true, that it lied, about me. Which everyone now knowing me as someone who is irresponsible, just like the other group members of the final project. Is it true that others are irresponsible too? No. I am seriously defending them. Both of them are nice, they worked. Unlike the creature who ruin my sweetness.. because it was always missing during every meetings, and go for people from other classes, the junior in 71batch, I must tell. The reason? maybe it is gay. Most likely it is.

The truth:
3 of us in the group work a lot, since prep production until production. ALL.
Except for this creature. And now, everybody is tired, busy working, try to catch up with our life because all of us have a lot more to think and to do than the creature, because it is just a "budak" (means little boy in Bahasa Malaysia), a super spoil one, which do not know how to do anything and do not know about almost all the things on earth, because seriously a 4 years old girl know more. I'm not kidding you.
And, it isn't finish yet, it complaint a lot about our animation, it says our animation are ugly. So, it offer himself to redo and do all the animation. And it not done so many months, because it keeps on blaming on other people. AND, of course, blabber to people around it that it is doing the fcking project alone, and nobody help, and it is tired. Suck your own dik!

For your information, I hate this person so much. So much i can go insane because I am still fukcing live at the same place with it!

tbc.

Labels: bitter, rant

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7:52 PM

Woah... This is the 1st time I eat at fullhouse :)

Feel like splashing some colors onto the wall....

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10:19 PM

u know? im sick again.

= =

the whole month being like this.

so shitty.

anyway,

i really talk a lot bout my life to her...

after all, i am really such a spoil kid.

:: Val :: says (8:19 PM):

hi cheese ♥

how r u doing there?

beside being sick.

i miss you ~

cheese says (9:10 PM):

VAL!!!

i jz wk up

:: Val :: says (9:10 PM):

evening

not going to eat dinner?

cheese says (9:13 PM):

aaaa

i fell asleep again

so sleepy

hahahaha

u ate ur dinner d?

:: Val :: says (9:13 PM):

medicine making u drowsy?

yup

ate long hour ago already

hahaha

cheese says (9:14 PM):

hahahaha... its 9 @_____@

not medicine.. i din take it today but still super sleepy n tired

btw how's u??

i miss u so much

:: Val :: says (9:14 PM):

coz u're sick

: (

i'm doing ok

i'm no more working

cheese says (9:15 PM):

hmm?

so what u doin lately?

:: Val :: says (9:15 PM):

slacking

boss haven pay me my pay yet

cheese says (9:16 PM):

since when ur not working? i miss that slacking feeling

hehehehhe

when's ur boss gonna pay u?

:: Val :: says (9:16 PM):

since last week

donno lar him

always say next day next day

now just wait

btw

cheese says (9:17 PM):

btw?

:: Val :: says (9:17 PM):

i got driving license d

: D

cheese says (9:17 PM):

WOAH!!!!!!!!!!!!

CONGRATZ!!!

^_____________^

thats cool!

:: Val :: says (9:18 PM):

can bring u around d

: D

cheese says (9:18 PM):

yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

nice Val

how was the test?

:: Val :: says (9:18 PM):

it was ok

thank goodness i didn't screw up the bukit

hahaha

cheese says (9:18 PM):

so... u like driving??

:: Val :: says (9:19 PM):

oh yesssss

cheese says (9:19 PM):

: D

hohoho

i want to sit in the car with u driving!!!

yeaaaaayyyy

:: Val :: says (9:19 PM):

yayyy

cheese says (9:19 PM):

then then......

did i miss smthg else?

:: Val :: says (9:20 PM):

that's about it

hahaha

just becoming driver for my family

cheese says (9:20 PM):

waaaa

ur family must b very proud

ur brother can drive too?

:: Val :: says (9:21 PM):

nopes

nt yet

maybe next year

cheese says (9:21 PM):

hahaa... goooooooood

so this is ur year to conquer thee cars!!!

:: Val :: says (9:21 PM):

hahahaha

cheese says (9:22 PM):

how's everyone doin?

everythg alrite?

:: Val :: says (9:23 PM):

they're doing ok

my bro is preparing for his exam next month

cheese says (9:23 PM):

the final exam?

:: Val :: says (9:23 PM):

physics exam

cheese says (9:23 PM):

hmm.....

so u still waiting for the merci trip again?

i am sooo want to join

:: Val :: says (9:24 PM):

yupss

next month

cheese says (9:24 PM):

but i dun think i can @__@

it looks really nice

can go around n really feel thaat u r helping people

hehhee

u know

smtimes lately i feel like want to go for a missionary

= =

:: Val :: says (9:26 PM):

come lor

cheese says (9:26 PM):

maybe coz im really tired of what i am doin all of my life

:: Val :: says (9:26 PM):

: )

come here

take secret leaves from ur company

fly

cheese says (9:26 PM):

then?

:: Val :: says (9:26 PM):

fly here

and join me >: )

cheese says (9:27 PM):

goin for missionary trip kah??

O____O

val...

i miss God

:: Val :: says (9:28 PM):

yaa

cheese says (9:29 PM):

feel like wanna serve Him with all of my life but i cant over everythg i hv now

eventho smtimes i feel like i have nothing already

= =

:: Val :: says (9:29 PM):

*hugss

cheese says (9:30 PM):

aaa

i want money

then can travel around the world

and do nothing

lol

:: Val :: says (9:30 PM):

i'm craving for money

i am peniless

waiting for my ex boss

cheese says (9:31 PM):

huh? really2 penniless??

ur saving?

:: Val :: says (9:32 PM):

haha

no lar

still got some ringgit

how r u and kw?

cheese says (9:35 PM):

we're good

everythg is like normal lately no more every week argue

:: Val :: says (9:36 PM):

that's good : )

cheese says (9:38 PM):

mmm..

i miss college life a lot

and the friends

smtimes now i dun feel like im hving friends anymore like that..

coz working friends r colleague n thats it

no more sit around n crapping n do nothing or do everythg together

n the most thing that i missed from college life

is not worrying how to make money for living

aaarrrgggg

it drives me crazy

i dun like working

smtimes i feel like a spoil child who dun wna go to school

except its work not school

:: Val :: says (9:45 PM):

hahaha

cheese says (9:46 PM):

hmm

ah.. u know

im so bad

i envy him

= =

i envy his life..

:: Val :: says (9:47 PM):

cheese says (9:47 PM):

hmm

just that

he stay with family..

he got a dad n mom who he can talk to

his brother always call him also

his lil bro always look up to him n his brother

he got lotsa friends

the friends from lotsa places not oni frm college or working place..

then all of my friends r his friends too

i mean even without me he can hang out with my friends n talk to them

then he got activities

maybe the not nice part bout his life is me

smtimes i feel like a heavy burden for him

but i dun wna left out

i dun wna b alone

scared

n i fel like all of his friends r not actually my friends

i cant even talk to them when he isnt with me

just sad...

i dunno y i bcm so spoil

i hate myself

:: Val :: says (9:55 PM):

don be so hard on urself

cheese says (9:55 PM):

i want to b positive

but i realize that i rly hv nothing

i am hv no family

i mean i have but they r so far away

eventho they r with me i cant even talk to them

not close with them

even my sister.. i dunno anythg bout her alr

at all....

in jakarta i hv nothing at all not even baju anymore

i lost contact with all those high sch frens ort junior hisg sch n elementary friends

n i feel my friends here are closer to kw than me

:: Val :: says (10:00 PM):

friends come and go

:: Val :: says (10:01 PM):

true friends won't go

:: Val :: says (10:02 PM):

and will stick to u through thick and thin

cheese says (10:03 PM):

i dunno...

most always go

:: Val :: says (10:03 PM):

i'm still sticking : )

cheese says (10:03 PM):

ya...

thank you for being with me

:: Val :: says (10:04 PM):

sure u have ur irritatance

cheese says (10:04 PM):

appreciate it a lot

:: Val :: says (10:04 PM):

but i love u no matter

: )

and don't u forget it : )

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8:58 PM

just throw up again..
i wish i know what's goin on with my body.

feel so weak, day by day,, and i don't like being like this weak since i was small.

want my immune system grow stronger, but no.
it don't. for now.
i will work till it is stronger.
i must

how many times i throw up today? 4 times? 5?
how many times i throw up this week?
@___@
i lost count.

i need some food to get into my stomach. please

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8:23 PM

sick.. for a week.

tired of it.
and am hungry yet no food can fill my stomach.
throwing up the whole week isn't nice, i wonder y people can still be an anorexic.

been so stress lately.
my life's a mess. and i don't even know why is it a mess.

i want a break. seriously. that's y i didn't go to work today.

talk bout break, why on earth the company haven't even look at my leave request?
how to apply a visa and book a super expensive flight ticket is its not approved yet???
argh. shit.

anyway, 1 thing which is nice is, i get in touch with Peggy,
been forever since the last time heard bout them..
miss them badly.. unusual feeling for a family and relative....

and i miss my bf... so much..

n miss my life. the life i used to have.....

well.. and i changed the blogger address :) i hope that person wont find me anymore.

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